imperfectionist

gutted

2009-01-15T02:45:00.002+08:00

Its been a super long time since i've last posted.
I've decided to blog today, to get everything out of my chest.
This week is a tiring, disappointing, clueless, hopeful, i want to kill cambridge, etc. type of week.
Upon receiving my result slip, in my heart i knew what type of results i would be getting.
But i NEVER EVER expected my DnT to get an E8. The effort put into my coursework, and the results.. i couldn't believe it either. It just tells me that i shouldn't have even taken up DnT.. In denial for a good 2 days.. AM STILL IN DENIAL. Thanks for those that came to ask if i'm fine or comforted me.
Another thing, some students in school dam dam drama. Got dam good results, name got annouced for getting 3 or more As. but in the end, still cry.. Results so good already, still wanna cry until like you fail like that.. power pack uh, this type of people.

I've sort of gotten over the results of my O level results. (actually i haven't)
but the hard part is choosing whats the next step for me?
I've thought of retaking and going back to school. I've thought of going to shatec.I've thought of going to Poly and take a shitty course.
I'm still in a delima of choosing my next step.
Indeed, if i have gotten a better aggregate, i would have had more choices. I don't wanna be so so far away/ being isolated from my friends, and of course Huan Ni. Tell me, who would want that to be isolated.
Although being told alot of times that eventually, we all would be in different schools or same school but different courses, our bond would still be strong as ever. But still..

Back then..
I was never clueless on what to do next.
Never afraid of speaking up.
Never afraid of this or that.
But now..
Take away never and put the word, Am.
Ah, its quite a wordy post. i shall stop already.

2008-10-23T19:44:00.004+08:00

GIVE UNTIL THERES NOTHING LEFT

Os have already started, chemistry and english are done and dusted.
tomorrow is the dreaded maths..
study until don't feel like studying anymore.
i just can't wait for the Os to enddd.
everything will just be great!
this will be a short post. will head back to the books already.

i could do everything nicely and proper.
but never ever get recognised..

2008-10-14T21:34:00.002+08:00

THE BEST HAS YET TO COME.

well oh well, 2 more days to the prac. scary shittt.
6 more days to the written papers. and again, scary shittt.
i just wish the Os would be over asap!
the plans after Os are just whoa!
guess its the inspirations of the plans after Os that keeps me going on (:
first, work, work and more work to earn some cash.
shopping sprees, ton-ing, staying overnight at friend's place/my place (my parents will be going overseas!!!!) , BBQs, chalets, KELONG at indonesia!! ,etc etc.
so many things to doooooooo.

its just the beginning, we just need to adjust and adapt.
it wouldn't be good keeping things inside, and i would listen to you and i'll be there.

and...
don't worry, the best has yet to come.
the Os will be over in no time and there will be loads of things to do together & with the group(:
imgaine all the fun (:

2008-10-05T19:34:00.004+08:00

WE DON'T HAVE TO LOOK BACK.

Well oh well, it’s the study break and the O’s are approaching in 2 weeks time.
Its really scary.. will surely miss the class.
In sec 3, we didn’t really had so much fun.
But in sec 4, things start to change. the bonds we had were really strong.
We were united, we all had loads of fun dissing each other, bully the teachers, the classic stunts we always do and never fail to laugh at it, etc.
Never will I forget the people in my class and what we all have done together(:

Alrights, well I’ve said that I would want my Fridays to be power pack and it was for last Friday(:
Stayed over at huan ni’s place, had steam boat at her house too.
Gossiped, slacked/chilled, tv-ed, etc.
Didn’t have much sleep la! Its like only 2 hours of sleep?
Some more after we went back home, I still went out!
Went to the converse warehouse sale with huan ni.
But it was crap. The shoes there were like imported from Thailand la! The shoes like never see before. Nothing caught my eye and we spent only 10 mins there and left. After that met up with des at kovan, went to eat and then studied at my crib(:

Today was a great day(:
Had soccer, my team won 4-1, I scored 3 goals!! Hat trick(:
And we played against our school’s soccer coach team eh!
Best part, my dad got sent off as he didn’t like the ref’s decision. Pointed the middle finger at him. And then when the ref sent him off, he spit at him.
First time I see him like that man!
Alrights it’s a long post already, stopping soon.

Grandma, its been 3 years since I felt your presence.
The new house, the neighbours that you could befriend with, and everything great but you’re not here to enjoy it.. I know that in the past I did loads and loads of things that would hurt your feelings.. but well, I could only use the reason of “I was young and wasn’t sensible to my actions” they always say, you would only cherish the precious/important things once they no longer belong to you or isn’t around anymore. I miss your naggings, the great food that you’ve cooked,etc. well hope you’re enjoying time with grandpa(:

when you say never…..i say lie
when you always….i say true
when you say love…

I say you.

2008-09-26T22:51:00.027+08:00

this post will be kinda long, but bear with me! there will be pics at the end of the post(:

fridays will always be fridays(: today was the B.O.M.B!
today in class everyone was like camwhoring!
i know my phone's camera good la(: chey!
so, after school the destination was my crib(:
zuo yang, wei loon, ben, jia wei, raja, cheng yue and eilene( she left when we went to swim)
scenario 1; headed to the swimming pool.
did somersaults and power bombs into the pool!swam a little but got a little bored and headed over to the slide.
since jia wei came to my house and played the slide with me and the rest before, he knew what i was going to do and offered raja to go first( raja's first time coming to my house)
so raja went down innocently, and i quickly slide down and gave him a kick. there goes his moaning/ cursing and swearing! normal for us to hear all these.
scenario 2; headed to the steam bath room.
damn! the last time i used it was when faris lai ,keran and andy came over to my house. the room was still working perfectly fine the steam was great.
but today, it failed on us. only a little steam was observed(chemistry has gotten into me..)
well, we played batsu (a no laughing game, my class usually plays this game during boring lessons and assembly(: )
raja got hit the most! that malay. OPPS! my bad.
after the steam bath was the jacuzzi.
imagine 7 people fitting into a small space.
before going into the jacuzzi, the water level was full.
come out uh! the water level like half only.
1st of the best part; the place became a swamp.
we started spitting each other the water inside the jacuzzi.
basket! like war zone only! dirty some more!
thats why the water level became half(: splashed alot alot alot of water at each other too.
apparently we became like 12 year old kids.
scenario 3; we headed back to the swimming pool.
did loads of somersaults and power bombs. tried to do back flip but it failed.
then we decided to have a "wrestling match"
i climbed onto zuo yang's shoulders and ben got onto wei loon's shoulders.
hands are only allowed and have to push your "opponent" into the water.
so raja wanted to try as he thought it was fun. (zuo yang and me already planned to give raja a "good time")
2nd best part;
so when raja got onto zuo yang's shoulders and was ready to wrestle ben, i quickly gave him a stunner.(oh well, jian hao will surely be appluasing me for this(: ) there goes his moaning/cursing and swearing. okay la, sorry mate! all in the name of fun(:
scenario 4; headed back to the slide. last but NEVER the least, best part.
and so raja got accustomed to kicking of people while sliding down the slide, he decided to use it on jia wei.
he saw jia wei sliding down slowly and took his chance, but being a typical person, he sort of slipped and hit his head on the slide! we were all laughing! shiok or not uh raja! (:
so after all these we headed back to my house to bathe and went to eat.
today was pure fun/AWESOME!
you just gotta be there to experience it!
raja's moanings/cursing and swearing. raja's bangala accent( obviously making fun of me). the name callings,racist remarks(why do malays don't have to pay school fees!!!) all the ACCIDENTS/STUNTS that had happened! actually all this happens everyday in class! my class power la! (: i'm happy being 4e1(:
*all in the name of fun!*
well i'm done for the post and now for pictures!

i'll be the sister and you'll be the brother(:

model of the year(:

6 guys and one girl.
oh yes, we're in the girl's toilet!

desmond, let me give you a kiss(:

he needs a spanking to move faster!

click to enlarge.
see what books me thomas and raja are holding(:

i showed zuo yang this picture and he laughed immediately.(because of raja's face)
FACE OF THE YEAR 2008! (RAJA'S FACE)

and i hope there isn't any problems in viewing this post in internet explorer!
if there is, go get firefox!!
alrights, i'm off!
CIAOS!

2008-09-25T19:01:00.004+08:00

well oh well, its been so so long since i posted.
figured that i used my comp today.(the dreadful Os..)
well, prelims are just whoa, got a score of 28 points. failed maths, science and POA.
oh well for poa, i ain't going for the O level exams.(a picture of my poa paper will be up)
but for maths and science, its time to buck up!
everything has been really great(:

classes nowadays are fun, loads of laughters and jokes.(imagine the racist remarks, name callings,"bullying" of teachers AND the classic one that happened recently. shi quan wanted to become a "joker" strangled bob with a towel (it was after pe) and thought it was a joke but turned out that the joke was on him.
made DK super furious, made the class laugh at his actions and the face of being malu-ed. gotta be in my class and you'll know the situation. shi quan, act cute ah!

well, its quite a long post i should say!
guess i'm stopping here.
and now, the the poa papers(:

works of me,raja and samantha(:
click to enlarge to see the 3 papers!

2008-09-20T12:10:00.002+08:00

alright, fridays are the best time of the week for me.
i would always try to make plans for my fridays(:
yesterday was seesha-ing.
huge dose of seesha and the cancer sticks
had loads of fun yesterday, there were alot of people around as well!
if i ain't wrong there were close to 20 people!

well the Os are just round the corner, time to just concentrate on it and get into the desired course i wanna go.
oh ya! speaking of this, i'm happy for my D&T(: my journal was good and i had a good mark(:
step into the exam hall, and even if i score 50/100 for my written paper. i'll still get A2(: but... i'll be aiming for an A1(:
i'll post up the pics for yesterday when i get the pics from quin weng and ashley!
i'm off.

a man with a piercing is better prepared for a relationship...... he has experienced pain and bought jewellery(:

2008-09-16T23:16:00.002+08:00

i certainly had something to post bout what happened just now.
but it seems, things changed(:
never saw it coming, never expected it!
well just a short post for today!

perhaps you don't know that i'm referring to you.
indeed, small things actually can perk you up(:
i just wish things would stay this way.
probably i'll tell you soon.
-you're the sweetest taste of sin-
you're so so f-l-y(:

as for the tagger.
barking dogs lie low when they are left aside.

2008-09-14T20:01:00.002+08:00

i was seriously looking forward to soccer today.
but everything turned out to be crap.
won the game but i missed a penalty and i sprained my wrist.
basket. a very good time to have a sprained wrist uh..
thank god the fella who pushed me, suffered an injury. hope that you'll be limping for a long time uh!
my left wrist is sprained, even typing, i'm havin difficulties.
luckily its left not right. i got exams tomorrow man!
another thing, a pity that i couldn't join my classmates at the gathering. some hardcore fun stuffs gonna be happening but i ain't gonna be there. argh! my parents wouldn't allow, so didn't even ask them.
basket, i just received a text from huan ni.
OH WELL, because of the *(raja's race) i can't have a hair cut. i waited dam long to have a hair cut and they had to take my place.ok, not so long but I NEED A HAIR CUT.
can't do anything..

i can't keep my hands out the cookie jar!

2008-09-13T23:16:00.002+08:00

well oh well. a powerpack day man!
i woke up at 8.30, went for "tuition" the tutor is... no comments la.
met up with my friend for breakfast. headed over to the singapore pools near my house(:
bet-ed on 3 areas. total goals; 3. first half draw, second half liverpool win. first half man u leading, second half liverpool win(; i reckon that some people wouldn't understand, but who cares!
the returns for the total goals was 19 bucks. (the first half draw, second half liverpool) winning was 30 bucks. and the (first half man u leading, second half liverpool win) was 260 bucks man!
can't resist the temptations man!
after that i went home to get ready to met the usuals(:
caught the movie bangkok dangerous or dangerous bangkok. (forgotten the sequence of the name!)
the movie was alrights(: strictly for people above 16!!
ate dinner at KFC and rushed home to watch the match!
LIVERPOOL WON MAN!
i'm 51 bucks richer la babe!(:
49 from singapore pools and 2 from zethow(: (excluding the 2 bucks you owe me still)
better than nothing man! wished to have the 260 bucks winning but oh well!
liverpool played well! don't be sad uh man u fans!

well, i'm going off now! DOTA!
the slow and steady way, will always win the race.
if its not fated. then too bad.
oh, liverpool won man u? NOT SURPRISED(:

2008-09-10T19:08:00.003+08:00

apparently when i view my blog in firefox, the size of the post is perfect.
but when i view it in internet explorer, have to scroll to the left and back to the right.
SO VIEW IN FIREFOX.
alrights, i was very busy for the past few days.
prelims prelims and prelims.
tomorrow i've got chem and poa paper 1.
poa i'm bound to have a good sleep(:
i slept for 1 hour and 15 mins for my poa paper 2. (2 hours paper)
tomorrow i'll be able to relax even more! FRIDAY NO SCHOOL/PAPERS MAN!(:
i'm always looking forward to fridays(:
slacking, chilling, having fun all happens on friday.
alrights, i think i'm going off!
tummy is grumbling and i'm off to get DINNER.
ciaos!

got me speeding to the fast lane.
walking by.

2008-09-06T13:41:00.009+08:00

i'm so bored now and i've got nothing to do!
so i figured out that i shall just post what was happening yesterday(:
met up with eunice and quin weng at toa payoh!
FIRST TIME, eunice was earlist uh!
headed down to toa payoh indoor sports hall to watch a netball match between singapore and botswana.
oh well, sad to say that singapore lost the game. but yah, it was really interesting and fun watching the match. eunice and quin weng got surveyed during the match! a really long survey, thank god i wasn't surveyed(:
and, netball has SO MUCH RULES! way loads of rules man!
yeah, so after the match we went to grab a bite. talked a little and we went off out seperate ways.
quin weng accompanied me to the bus stop, men's talk(:
and yah, thats about my day, yesterday(:

photos(: JUST 2, but better than nothing!

(:

works of quin weng uh! not mine!

lets go, don't wait. this night's almost over.
you're so F-L-Y.

*edited*
oh crap, i just realised that when i view the post in Internet Explorer, there is a problem with the post! so don't view my blog in IE uh! use firefox!(:

2008-09-02T00:17:00.002+08:00

today was supposed to be a studying day!
met up with huan ni, zet how, bob and cheng yue, but in the end we didn't!
headed down to pek kio CC to play some basketballs(: edbert, darence and grayson were there already. after that zuo yang and ben came.
it was seriously fun(:
at the end of the day, had a match against 4 guys. full court. me edbert grayson and ben(:
serious thrashing we gave them!
SOCCER PLAYER'S READING OF THE GAME VERY GOOD ONE !(:
cabbed back home from there as i didn't wanna make my father pissed off.
the guys there knew what happeneddddddd.
i seriously wish to change my phone with good camera features!
oh its seriously not nice to post without any pictures.
the fun memories can't be pictured down eh.

All is in a masquerade.
you wouldn't know whether to take a left or right turn at a junction you're stuck in.

2008-08-31T22:54:00.002+08:00

oh crap, I'm having flu now.
thank god today i had soccer if not I'll be dead bored!
won the match 5-2(: I SCORED 3 GOALS LA BABE!(:
my second hat trick eh(:
oh shit. i forgot what i wanted to write about THAT JANICE.
something embarrassing! oh man, you're seriously lucky uh.
don't forget my SWEETS! you ass(:

i'm on 14 already, i'll reach 20.
i haven't forgotten about my promises.

2008-08-31T01:25:00.002+08:00

ALRIGHTS! today met up with huan ni, ashley bob, jian hao(for a while) and MOOSE.
ate at POPEYE'S(: the food there is nice eh!
after that walked to esplande to catch electrico(:
but we only went there for like 10 mins? BUT YEAH, the atmosphere there was great(: but crowded la!
after that ashley and jian hao left, and so left with the 4 of us. me huan ni moose and bob.
headed to suntec's coffee bean! total jokes and laughter there!
we tried to order the typical kopitiam style! gotta be there and you'll know it(:
so we walked all the way to some where opposite the esplanade/ padang.
talked about random stuffs and blasted some music and home sweet home!(:

and before i posted this up, i was dota-ing.
GOSH MY FRIEND IS LIKE...
basket, i asked him to play he said okay.
10 mins into the game when one person left, he said that he wanted to leave as well as he was tired.
thats crap! you tired you still accept to play for what sia!
LOL JANICE, now you know how i complain to you uh!
and you owe me my pizza sweets(: WE'LL TRADE UH! LOADS OF SWEETS PLEASE(:

no pictures tonight as we didn't bring any cameras or either our phone's camera sucked badly.
I WANT THE PHONE THAT I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR..
the LG VIEWTY PHONEEEE. 5 MEGAPIXEL!
and yes, bob's dressing can seriously make a girl go WHOA! (its a compliment uh!(: )

i'm not crazy i'm just a little unwell.i knoow, right now you can't tell.
but stay awhile and maybe then you'll see.
A DIFFERENT SIDE OF ME(:
gosh, that was worth dying for(:

2008-08-30T00:27:00.008+08:00

KEEP THE STICKS AND POP THE TOP LIKE A SARDINE CAN!(:
today was simply simply awesome!!!!
i had loads of laughters with the class today!

after school was great too(:
met up with my great great friends!
its been long since i met up with them! had so much to catch up with them(:
went to keran's house too! whoa! the beats he produced got ON THE DAM RADIO EH!
power pack! seriously happy for him(: looks like not going to a poly wouldn't make a big diff uh!

and so, we part our ways. went to meet up with the usuals(:
met them at amk hub, as they went to watch 4bia.
after that went to eat at CHOM CHOM! the food there is still good(:
talked alot. oh huan ni, the people just beside our table, you know i know what they were talking about uh!(: ah, don't be jealous uh! hahah! but nah, twits!
and so after dinner we went to anyhow walk and ended up at some park, played there. slacked, talked, wrestled, climbed up the spider web thingy, and did loads of stuffs! simply awesome!(:
and yes, i can clearly see my classmates are united, trust me, i'll keep to my promise!
after that, headed back to j8, ate at mac! and HOME SWEET HOME! and now, pictures(:

alrights blogger is kinda crazy at the moment. i can't place any captions beside the pics! oh well, needless to say a picture tells a thousand words(: i seriously had fun! i wanted to put up zet how's photo, but blogger doesn't permit..

anyhow, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ZET HOW!(:

we don't have to be thinking about things that would affect your mood negatively.

so why not enjoy now? cause i know i am.

i don't need all the complicated stuffs.

choose the easy and very likely to get the results you want option(:

seems that, i would know what i want to choose(:

its playing on repeat, just like when we would meet.

2008-08-27T20:12:00.002+08:00

today was GREAT(:
english papers was alrights too(:
whoa, the past few days have been hectic for me eh!
DNT DNT AND MORE DNT.
finally i'm done with my artefact!
thank god it looks pleasing to MR FIZ(:
well, mr lee just doesn't do anything and is baised towards the 4Ns.
so my presentation boards are the last thing i have to do and complete!
tomorrow is the deadline. i would surely heave a sigh of relief after this coursework sia!
and i would learn from it and never to PROCASTINATE!
confirm MATI when you rush sia!
oh well, i'll learn from this journey(:

i don't know why, i can't keep my eyes off of you(:
a change is needed for a better day(:

2008-08-26T19:05:00.002+08:00

DNT IS SERIOULSY DAM STRESSING..
i spent 7 hours doing nothing but DNT.. from 11-6.
if i knew what i was gonna face now. i wouldn't haven procastinated from the beginning.
well, i guess its just get it over with and complete everything in 2 days.
just one more step and my artefact will be completed.
and the rest will be my journal.

i tend to imagine things that i want and would love to have and tend to hope that it would become reality.
but sometimes, things just don't go your way or you have to fight for whats yours.
if its yours, it will surely be yours.

whats wrong?
you don't seem yourself.

2008-08-25T19:42:00.002+08:00

seems like i woke up on the wrong side of bed today.
i just don't know why i don't feel myself today.
alrights in class i was kinda alrights, the usual laughters and jokes.
but after school was super tiring and had so so many things on my mind.
i guess i'm just stressed up on my DNT, 28 is the deadline and i'm only halfway there.

well oh well, even zuo yang is not online now. guess he is studying now.
i guess i should go off soon.
i'm OFF.

perhaps tomorrow will be better than today.
thanks for the pinch uh! it hurts seriously!

i'll see how it goes. i hope you know.
you never lose by loving, you lose by holding back.

2008-08-24T17:57:00.003+08:00

i seriously had fun yesterday and today!(:
met up with the gang at suntec! ate lunch, after that walked about.
we decided to go to parklane,we were playing some "ball gazer game!" the laughters and jokes were seriously the B.O.M.B!
reached and went to the arcade and then the lan shop, the lan shop seriously sucked!
after that took a bus down to marina square! ate at seoul garden!
I SAW FARIS LAI! its been long since i saw him, the last time i was with him was during the june hols? i can't remember!
he keeps on stealing what ever good i took! that fella like a pig la!(he was waiting for his turn and he was starving as he had a match)
we ate and played some batsu game, this part was the best! we took loads of food and played with it, making the others laugh(; dam funny!
if only i HAD a good phone i would be taking photos!(my phone's camera button is spoilt) my parents told me that they would get whatever phone i want after the exams. thats a super long wait.I WOULD CRINGE WHEN EVER I HEAR THE WORD O LEVELS OR PRELIMS. SO DON'T SAY IT TO ME!
alrights, after dinner, we all decided to have a stayover.. AT MY HOUSE!(:
seems like every saturday is a routine to have stayovers uh!
i slept at around 5 sia!
i woke up at 1130?
well, overall it was pure fun(:
alrights its a long post! so i'm OFF!(:

sometimes, i said i'm joking. but sometimes i'm not(:
i skipped a beat.
more than words.

2008-08-21T20:32:00.002+08:00

7 more days to the deadline of the submittion of my DNT project!
1 weeks seems short but i got loads of stuffs to do!
i'll just put in my best and hope everything goes well!
it'll surely be a huge burden off my shoulders after i've submitted my journal and artefact(:

well, school was great today!
the jokes, laughters and well you can say, dissing/"debating" with people in the class was super funny and fun(:
3 more months till we leave the school and i do hope that we'll still be in contact with everyone!

giving up doesn't mean you're weak.sometimes it means you're strong enough to let go.
OFF TO WORK ON MY DNT!(:

2008-08-20T20:29:00.003+08:00

today was alrights(:
just needed to be with my mates(:
PE was totally great! everybody enjoyed(: 9-9 uh!
i had a great time talking and joking during maths and assembly(: batsu game(:

it shall be a short post, i don't feel like posting without any pictures!
alrights, ciaos!
whoa oh!

2008-08-19T18:32:00.003+08:00

i've been really really busy these few days rcently!
stressed up with loads and loads of stuffs!!!
but i do enjoy the company of my friends(:
loads and loads of laughters!
hope that after we graduate we would still be like this(:

the reason i came to post ;
this is for the some one special i had spent with for the pass 1 year and 7 months.
ups and downs there were. but i guess we both drifted apart.
our talks and chats were drier than usual.
girl, its not you. its me.
its really hard on me too.
i've spoken to loads and loads of people around me regarding the situation between me and you.
all of them have told me. whatever you decide you better be happy and not regret, most importantly listen to my heart.
i really don't wanna be regretting my decision and let something great pass by me.
but what qw said to me that made me understand was, life is an ice cream. better enjoy it before it melts, and when you're angry or depressed the ice cream would melt faster. i want the both of us to be happy. i do see you really really happy when you're with your friends.
i'm happy with my friends as well. once a broken mirror is shattered, even thought being able to fix it back, the mirror would have cracked lines along.
well girl. all i can say that i have never regretted my decision being with you. i learnt alot of things when i'm with you.
these precious memories i hope you'll keep too, because i surely will.
no matter what you do in the future, i'll be behind you and supporting you.
i guess thats all.

2008-08-10T01:41:00.012+08:00

the one in green(:

pictures from yesterday!

the time now its 1.44am.

the crew were supposed to stay over! but i guess they were tired and didn't wanna ton, so they headed home!

but i sure had loads of laughter with them(: zuo yang, wei loon, zet how, ben, huan ni(:

talked about the some certain stuffs, about our pasts, how naughty we were and upon coming to secondary school life, we guys start to mature(: thanks guys for the talks we had, i'm still kinda confused and messed up.

ah madgirl, thanks for your concern(: really really appreciate it(:

i'll talk to you face to face aye? i don't really feeling like typing things out or texting. i just don't know why either.

i need someone to talk to.

there are people around, but i just can't seem to make do of what they have told me.

easier said than done.

thats all folks

2008-08-09T01:18:00.002+08:00

well oh well, its been long since i posted!
i sure had loads of fun with my class mates(:
more than 20 people turned up to celebrate darrne eng's early birthday celebration(:
played soccer, volleyball and even throwing people into the sea(:
oh well, the bad part was when we were deciding where to eat. in the end we ate at lau pa sat!(:
old old faces there, faris, eugene, ismail, fabian!
but well, old memories there too.
the last time i went there, it was a period of *fall from grace*
ah nvm(: after eating, we slacked joked alot! i wanted more! but i guess the fatigue took a toll on us, and so we decided to head home! TOMORROW, the gang is heading to my house for a stayover(: SHIOK!!!

alrights apart from all these fun i had, i had loads of thoughts when i was in lau pa sat and on the way home.
thought of things from the past. i wondered why live in the past and not move on?
its kinda hard not to think of the past, even when the past was seriously bad.
well its the kind of thing you'll face when you're in it.
things are different now. the distance we are now are miles away.
we're both drifting apart, i guess.. nah nvm..
sighs i'm overly overly worried for my prelims and Os..
oh well...

people wants challenges when they don't face any.
but when they face challenges, they fall easily than they expected.
loving is NOT about holding on, its about letting go.

ciaos guys, pictures will be up tomorrow, I PROMISE.

2008-07-22T19:25:00.000+08:00

I'LL BLOG WHEN I GET THE PICS FROM HWEE CHANG!!! PROMISE!!(:

2008-06-18T00:30:00.005+08:00

WHOA! its been so so long since i've been to www.blogger.com!
everything is A-OK! bbq was great(:
i've got my slippers(: and the month of JUNE is the power pack month!(:
but sad to say, holidays are ending! must return to school on the 23 of june!
luckily i don't have re-exams, if not i'll be complaining!

so i went for training today,
could see that everyone's(including me) stamina has dropped like no body's business!
argh! my asthma is killing me, it has come back againnnn.
after training was total fun!
haiyo you guys, see girls only uh! want the girls to carry you all uh! JIA LAT AH!
and we played monkey!
MARCUS kena ole-ed so many times(: HOPE YOU DON'T SEE THIS!(:

well oh well(:
one more thing! i've got an amazing Gfriend(:
i wouldn't be able to do it! but you did it! after all, thats my girl(:
sweetheart seems a nice name to be called(:
2 MORE days to the BIG DAY(:
16th birhday and the 15th month anniversay(:
what can i say? june is the best for me! 20th june(:
ps; a post without a picture would surely be boring! so heres one(:
CIAOS!

taken on my birthday celebration with
the old mates(:

taken on my BIRTHDAY
with; amazing Gfriend(:

2008-06-05T21:42:00.002+08:00

ALRIGHTS!(:

finally no more early sleeping and early waking ups! no more school and its the hols for me(:
thank god i don't need to go for the re-exams(: power pack(:
things are so far so good(:
oh ya, quin weng; take care of yourself uh! be a good farmer! don't miss me too much!
i know you'll only see this when you're back! don't worry we won't miss you uh!
come back soon and enjoy the fun and don't miss out so much la babe!

i can't wait for this saturday!!(:
it'll sure be the B.O.M.B!!(:
BBQ with the normal peeps(:

alrights, people are nudging me to go play dota!!! CIAOS!(:
BBQ and my havianas slippers!!!(:

2008-05-18T23:24:00.002+08:00

ALRIGHTS! i had fun yesterday man!
SENTOSA! with keran,faris lai, andy,quin weng, sakil!(:
POWER PACK! INDIAN POKER! PLAYING MONKEY! DRINKING! AND SOMETHING ELSE(:
QUIN WENG, YOU SHOULD KNOW UH!
i had total fun yesterday all the problems went away when i'm with you guys!(:
REUNION!(:

ALRIGHTS, back to what i came to blogger.
i'm super sure you'll be reading my blog. so, MOFO! you like to get into people's problems ah?
you yourself got your own problems you care about my problems for what?
you can't even take care of yourself and you wanna take care of something else big.
ehh i don't need you to step into my problems la. don't try to act like a middleman. wait! YOU'RE A GIRL!
and YOU really cannot be trusted anymore! i tell you things and you f-ing tell others. it ain't a small issue either! ITS SUPER BIG HOR.. looks like you LIVE up to YOUR NAME! 2 headed snake!
nah, jaz not you uh! i really appreciate what you said to me the other day! THANKS!(:

actually i feel sad for you):
i pity you man! remember everyone is different! i love my girl. but yours didn't. SAD LIFE OF A CRYING DICK(:
so when did i offend you? did i do anything wrong to you? NAH!
hello, you better walk away from me. the sight of you will make me puke..

i'm off. i can't believe i actually took time off to type all these to a particular MOFO.
lets see how school life will be for you(:

2008-05-14T21:51:00.002+08:00

its been a long time since i've been here!
everything is kinda alright? althought this week is kinda F up?
monday never go school, alrights.
TUESDAY;
dam suay day man! first thing in the morning, gonna be late for school but i ran to school. felt dam sweaty and hot so i tucked out my shirt. and i didn't get caught by ANY TEACHERS, my name GOT CALLED OUT. crap man! one more chance. kena caught and suspended till prelims!!the whole day dam suay man..
Wednesday was alrights!

and tomorrow i've got intensive chinese lessons man. about 5 hours of chinese each day till chinese "O" levels!
and yes, results i've gotten back is crap? put in so much effort and the results is OMG, if it was Olevels,i go 60 story building to jump down man! together with my friends! so many people failed english! only about 5 people pass in the whole sec 4 cohort!thats dam jia lat man! i better start to buck up.

acedemics aside.
silenced uh.
the white pills, the white sticks and the pale faces..
i really don't know what to say.
Doubts To My L.O.V.E.
B.O.M.B.E.D..

2008-04-26T23:13:00.001+08:00

hellos zhiqin! hellos starfish! <3

2008-04-20T14:21:00.000+08:00

Check it out yourself! Is really cool! (:

2008-04-17T22:13:00.002+08:00

and so i didn't go to school today!
was "sick" OPPS!
as for the few people that knows something uh! SHHHH!
for the rest; ignorance is bliss(:

I've been watching you all day
Man, that thing you got behind you is amazin.CHEY!
and yes, noticing, so keep a look out uh!(:

shhhhhhh(:
that one thats so,so fly
this one to keep you high(:

SHOULD BE ON HAITUS DUE TO EXAMS!
IF I COME BACK TO POST, IT'LL BE COMPLAINING ABOUT THE EXAM PAPERS!

that girl(:

2008-04-09T20:29:00.003+08:00

YOU HACKED INTO MY ACCOUNT AND TYPED THOSE THINGS!
opps! not hack la(: yep! iloveyou too(:

well this few days has been kinda okay for me, i should say.
whoa! kinda stressed up as the mid year is round the corner!
i must and have to do well for it! Olevels!

soccer match against whitley tomorrow(:
try our best, and see the outcome(:
AND YES,LIVERPOOL WON ARSENAL! SEMI FINALS EH!(: POWER PACK!
THANKS TO QUIN WENG AND ZET HOW FOR DONATING MONEY TO ME UH!(:

alrights, i think i should get going already!
gotta get ready for my english presentation TOMORROW!
ciaos!

A hundred hearts would be too few
To carry all my love for you(: CHEY!

2008-04-07T15:41:00.000+08:00

idiot, iloveyou (:
<3 dyzq(:

Aint this abit familiar?

2008-04-01T20:46:00.002+08:00
1 APRIL.
TAKE CARE OF YOUR LEG UH!
BE HONOURED! I DIDN'T GO TO SCHOOL JUST TO TAKE CARE OF YOU(:
9 HOURS WITH YOU(: AWESOME, THATS ALL I CAN SAY(:

baby, maybe there is a little change here and there.
but fret not, i'm here, other things can change, but definitely not my feelings.
i'm here with open arms,
to comfort you and block the harm.
yes, i do love you(:

CRAP,Orals are nearby! and its chinese!
alrights, i'm off!
CIAOS!

2008-03-23T00:57:00.003+08:00
WHOA! I HAD A GREAT TIME YESTERDAY!
caught the movie STEP UP 2!(:
the movie is great!(only for the dance moves) girl is HOT! don't jealous uh!

saw loads of familar people too!
after the movie, head down to novena!
the first time i met you was at NOVENA eh!(:
i could still remember going the wrong escalator!NERVOUS LA BABE!

you're rushing me to off the computer and call you!
YOU UH!
alrights, i'm nice la(:
before i go, a picture(:

you're the b.O.M.b(:

2008-03-20T22:54:00.002+08:00
WHOA! 20th march!
I HAD A GREAT DAY TODAY!
OPPS! i skipped school today! but today special, so can't blame me la(:
so is trints nice?(: (:

i can't wait for tomorrow!(:
SO MANY THINGS TO DO!
time go slowly alrights??
i've got lots to say, but i'll just stop for now!(:
guess tomorrow i'll blog!(:

I can conquer the world with one hand,
as long as you're holding the other(:
DON'T WORRY! you can count on me(:
the more i learn, the more i love, thats when i can't get enough(:
20.3.07!(: 20.3.08!(:

2008-03-17T20:43:00.002+08:00
SCHOOL HAS REOPENED!
I'M SUPER TIRED TODAY MAN!
THANK GOD MRS QUAH DIDN'T COME TO SCHOOL TODAY!
after school was great! met up with keran!
loads of catching up! yep!(:
THAT FELLA BOUGHT LOADS OF THINGS!
LOADED FELLA!!
overall i had fun when i was with him(:

whoa! 3 more days(:
neither i nor you could wait for this day(:
CHEY! when will the smart girl pop the stupid question!HAHA!opps!(:
cause all the roads lead to where you are(:

2008-03-13T01:40:00.002+08:00
so far so good for me i can say!(:
late nights and early mornings has been the regular routine for this week(:
i had a great time with quin weng,faris, eugene, andy,qurek, huan ni!SENTOSA!
though it was a short period of time, i can say that at least we caught up with each other(:

EVERYTHING is going well for me(:
lets just say, things are way better than BEFORE!(:
i can never be better than this(:
all smiles eh(:

20th march is coming(:
i'm UP AND RUNNING! CATCH ME IF YOU CAN(:
i'm off! BYE!
trust me when i say.that i'll be okay(:

2008-03-09T17:54:00.003+08:00
its been long since i blogged!
SCHOOL HOLIDAYS!
3 months has really flew pass me in like a blink of an eye!
i totally admit that my results aren't that fantastic, well i'll make sure and PROMISE myself that i WILL try my very best for MID YEAR!
school has some how been very very boring without last year's batch of people!
great old days uh!
can't stop thinking about the fun i had last year(:
but its past, so i'll just have to get it back(:

hmmm, things are so far so good for me eh!
some obstacles here and there, but i'm glad i got my friends around me to pull me up(:
no worries, i'll do the same(: but, i want nothing to happen to you guys!
its 610! i think i shall stop already! and get ready!(:

he'll sign you up just to cross you off his checklist,
one more victim,
don't test it,
don't you want something more you can invest in?(: CHEY!

2008-03-05T17:21:00.002+08:00
a really really taxing day!
i only enjoyed myself during PE, could see everyone played their best, all was really tired! including me!
i think i shall just skip about school, it was kinda boring today.

i can't think of what to say!
i guess i shall just go off from this page(:

and yes, we could build up from there(:
NEVER a secondhand serenade(:
mad girl on the loose! so becareful! OPPS!

2008-03-01T00:39:00.004+08:00
WHOA! i had a great day today!
a leap year that i will never forget(: will never forget who i spent it with as well(:
i kept my promise(: and you made my job easier(:
ALL SMILES FOR THE BOTH OF US EH!

BABY,i just wanna say this. YOU ain't ALONE!
because i know that, i'll be the first one there no matter what(:
remember what i say; after 8 years(:
its alright if you cry, i'll catch you when you're gonna fall(:
i'll cheer you up when you're down!
i'll bring you up when you're at your weakest!
everyone has fears, but its about facing it and overcoming it!
step out of your comfort zone(: if you think no one will support you? NAH,you're wrong(: i'll be the first(:

i'm looking forward to tomorrow(:
another day of laughter, smiles and jokes!
a small little phrase, changes the whole atmosphere.
cause girl, you've got one thing from me(:
i love you from the start(: and i don't want an ending(:
i spent the most most awesome leap year with you(:
amazing 347 days(: another 20 more days uh!(:
last but NOT least(:

notice, this post is for you(:

p/s iloveyou

2008-02-28T19:30:00.002+08:00
i had a great day today!
i was really attentive in class eh!(:
after school i had loads of laughters too(: jokes and laughters!
i guess its time for serious work, can't be sleeping in class, can't be playing a fool like before.
O level la babe!

baby, i'm here.
i'm here with open arms,
to comfort and block the harm(:

i've been there and back again.
P.S. iloveyou

2008-02-26T19:21:00.003+08:00
i just realised something.
9 weeks has passed since school started. whoa its really really fast!
i guess the first 6 weeks it past too fast i couldn't catch myself at all!
friends; i learnt to appreciate the people around me, the people around me that really cares!
i've learnt so so much!

dumbo; come on! i know its really really hard on you! DON'T WORRY! you've got your friends around you! those who really care! take it easy, i know you can do it! take it slow and easy!i'm not the type that sits there and do nothing, i just can't bear to see the closest people around me suffer so so much. it ain't your loss! its your gain! take it as it is your learning experience! cause one day, i'm very sure you'll think to yourself; gosh i'm kinda foolish in the past eh! shouldn't have hung on for a long long time either! i ADMIT, picking things up is really easy, but letting it go, is a million times harder! but slowly, time will tell right? don't worry, i'll be there for you just like you were there for me! times are hard now, but just take it slowly and easy! you got your friends!

a REALLY REALLY GOOD friend of MINE, said this before; A CHANGE IS NEEDED FOR A BETTER DAY! friends play a really big part in your life, be it helping you along the way when you're feeling down, be it sharing your joys with you! FRIENDS are really IMPORTANT!.

its been 2 months since, yeah i gotta say its really hard man.
i haven stopped loving you and i guess the same goes for you.
well its really complicated but its okay, i'm liking the way things are now(:
i don't know what went wrong but i guess everything CHANGED EH!
i don't miss you by the way, i miss who i thought you were.

*end*
dumbo, don't worry, i'm sure you'll be fine!thanks to all who made me stand again(:
time heals all wounds!
ciaos!

I look around me
And I want you to be there
Cause I miss the things that we shared
Look around you
It's empty and you're sad
Don't you miss the love that we had?

http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/c/chris_daughtry/used_to.html
a really meaningful song with the lyrics with it(:

2008-02-21T13:03:00.003+08:00
i didn't go to school today!
i was late, so going to school would meant internal suspension, and so i shouldn't waste my time being suspended(:
tomorrow match against ACS(I), last match! we can do it eh!

almost,but..
i tried to laugh it off, but i made things worst.
now i'm heels over head(:

2008-02-20T21:05:00.002+08:00
GUYS, we all did a good job today(:
i certainly happy even though we lost the game(:
but back to school, i lost my cool.
sorry uh, i guess i'm just tired and not really in a mood just now.
my bad! but i'm glad everything is cleared!(:

and yes, there isn't anyone else other than her.
get the picture?(:
ciaos!

2008-02-18T19:03:00.003+08:00
MONDAY!
whoa i'm super tired!
had training! and yes, i put my everything in today's training(:
yeah, gonna give my best in wednesday's match(: THATS FOR SURE!

short post today as i'm rushing!
for me to know, for you to find out(:

people always say this is hard, that is hard.
BUT, life is never easy aye?(:

2008-02-14T19:51:00.002+08:00
WOOHOOO! valentine's day eh!!
ah yes(: i had a super great time today!
in class, we pranked matthew and zet how(:
whoa! ms koh wasn't sporty la! but we had loads of laughter!
AND..
nothing beats better than spending time with the one you wanna spend time with on this SPECIAL day(:
and yes(: i bet i gotcha! wonder who it came from uh! not a sec 1 kid but from DARREN!(:

yes(: i can surely say that i really enjoyed myself today(:
GREAT valentine's day(:
spending it with the one you love(;

CIAOS!(:
because the heart never lies(:

2008-02-09T22:06:00.000+08:00
WHOA! its saturday, the MOST boring saturday i have ever had!!!
I DIDN'T EVEN STEP OUT OF THE HOUSE.. how PATHETIC..
i don't know if tomorrow will be a better day or not uh, just hope tomorrow will be alright..
this year's CNY isn't anything special eh.
i don't have the CNY mood eh, everything is so so boring.
the same rountine, this and that all the same..

i guess i shall stop eh.

what goes around, comes around.
chap sticks, chapped lips and things like chemistry(:

2008-02-08T11:15:00.000+08:00
well, its chinese new year but i just don't find anything special about it this year!
i'm not really excited about going around to other people's houses just to shake their hands, say happy new year and there you go an ang bao. NAH.

yesterday!
pizza hut
esplanade
"watching" a gig
fire works
mid night movie
well as i said. the fire works every year is the same. but what makes it so so special is the one you're watching it with. embracing the one you love or just standing beside him or her, just makes everything complete.
well, about the movie, i understood how the girl felt after losing her husband.
GO WATCH THE MOVIE, its NICE!
nah, no sad stuffs eh!

i had a super great time with you today(:
laughters and jokes anyone?(: i'll bring it to your doorstep(:
i'm slowly getting back onto my feet, just need a little more help(:

2008-02-05T18:21:00.000+08:00
TUESDAY! i'm been looking forward to wednesday!
school ENDS at 1015! i think i'll be going out for a while tomorrow(:
THURSDAY i'll be rich man!
well, today was kinda an alright day for me(:
i got myself thinking about what i wanna do.
long term vs short term. i guess long term is better eh!

DUMBO, its okay(: let her say what she wants(:
afterall, i don't believe what she says about you!
well, i can't say much, as you know you know(:
let the barking dog lie low aye?(: eventually it'll just stfu(: OPPS!
give me time okay? everything will stop after *secret*(:

stop and stare, i think i'm moving but i go nowhere.
stop and stare,you start to wonder why you're here but not there.
where'd you go.

2008-02-03T14:33:00.000+08:00
AH! chinese new year! its coming, i'm having a lot of headaches about it!
i only got myself a pair of jeans from topman!
nvm(: i'm gonna get a new pair of boots with my dad(:
shall get some shirt and pants at the same time too(:
match against fairfield methodist sec tomorrow.
i've recovered, i guess i'll just play my normal game. no injuries please!

january; a month i really wanna forget about, but still keeps on coming back.
february is here, i hope things will get better.

dumbo; my MONDAY plan didn't fail. indeed i'm moving step by step. thanks for everything(:
this is the way that we love,
like its forever.
then live the rest of our life,
but not together.

I JUST NEED A LITTLE THING CALLED; luck
fairfield methodist.

2008-01-30T19:33:00.000+08:00
sorry guys, i'm not in any mood now.
i'm disappointed in today, guess we gotta work hard to our fitness and ball play eh.
short post..

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation
For what I'm feeling inside

i'm just speechless,
bye.

2008-01-29T20:03:00.000+08:00
ALRIGHTS! tuesday!
TOMORROW IS MATCH DAY!(:
KENT RIDGE HERE I COME!(:
great! got my jersey today! white and gold(: but the pants is like dam gay la!
i can't wait for tomorrow to come! i'm just so so excited!!
anyway, today was great(: although i was a little tired i must say.
had so much fun and laughter after school with faris,eugene and marcel!
left school around 5 or so?
went to dota for a while, and here i am!(:

i tried to paint you a picture, the colours were all wrong.
Why do you put me on a pedestal,
I'm so up high that I can't see the ground below,
So help me down you've got it wrong, I don't belong there(:
CHEY! oh no! some help?(: NAH! its alright!
WHERE GOT!(eugene this is for you(: )
friday! SHOPPING WITH ZUO YANG AND SOME OTHERS!(:
ciaos!(:

2008-01-28T18:58:00.000+08:00
MONDAY!!(:
its been a good day for me i shall say!(:
i was only bored when it came to DNT, mr lee doesn't wanna help when i'm really thinking of loads of situations! but nah! it won't get to me that easily(:
soccer was BAD! the coach CMI la! its okay, i'm prepared for wednesday!(:
i'll be running all over you guys! watch, i'm coming(: at the end of it, i'll have a goal to my name(:
I'LL BE CELEBRATING IN SCHOOL!(:

a change is needed for a better day(:
HOLY SHIT!
THATS WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT!
ciaos(:

2008-01-27T12:24:00.000+08:00
WHOA!
its sunday! had a great time yesterday(:
shan't elaborate much(:

well monday is coming(:
i'm leaving EVERYTHING BAD BEHIND(:
i'm CHANGED(: i'm back to my old self eh(:
things didn't go my way for the past 4 weeks, but well, after much thinking and talking to the people around me, they really say something which really knock some sense into me(:

to me, i believe in this;
give your everything,
fight till you cannot fight,
and then be fought for(: CHEY!
alrights, i'm stopping already(:

i'm leaving everything behind,
but hang on, things change but the feelings never.
OH NO! THE WORLD IS CHANGING!
THE WORLD NO MORAL AH!OPPS!(:
PS;U KNOW WHAT I MEAN(: yesterday was another example that your love is still there.
well, i think i know what you meant with your reasons. you have all the time in the world, i'm sure one day you'll say the things like how we got together on that fateful day. you know i said this, good things come in surprises.
CIAOS! BABY,ILOVEYOU SO.
MONDAY! back and running again(:

2008-01-25T23:31:00.000+08:00

FRIDAY!
didn't go to school(:
i left house on time but the bus wasn't on time!
went over to keran's house(:
slacked, talked about everything(:
went back to school in the afternoon as i had training(:
whoa it was seriously hot! training wasn't kinda okay. running,set pieces,match.
i know i gave my all(:

this week has pretty much drained me totally.
weekends are here, i'm gonna enjoy myself(:
saying i love you is not the thing i want to hear from you.
showing your feelings will never make you a fool(:

the fun we had,
the joy we shared.
the good old days,
the friendship will never be gone(:
mutual understand(:

CIAOS(:
starts with a H,ends with a G(:

2008-01-24T18:30:00.000+08:00

so seductive the way she looks!(:

thursday! the week is coming to an end(:
whoa this week is certainly dam tiring for me! i'm totally drained out.
i got back my maths test results(: SD!(: 17/20(: hoho but due to carelessness, i lost 4 marks!
i'm happy for keran(:
ehh! got my goodluck and presence of course get such a result la!
i had a great time with keran,khaliq,wanling,kuma and ridzwan(:
laughters(: great to train your abs eh!(:
tomorrow is friday and i'll be having training(:
next wednesday match day! against kent ridge!(: i'll be running all over you guys(: CHEY!
alrights, i shall be stopping(:

and and and!
i seriously didn't expected this(:
well, good things come in surprises eh!
thanks dumbo(: listening to everything i said for the past few weeks(:
a thousand of thanks and apologies to all my friends(:
trust me, monday i'm back up(:
i've learnt, why do this to yourself and the ones around you?(:

wait a minute!
i am the architect of my own happiness(:
girl, be part of my plan! short and simple(:
CIAOS(:

2008-01-22T21:54:00.001+08:00
its tuesday and i'm already feeling so so tired!
what more is that there is PE and soccer tomorrow!
speaking of soccer, our first match is against kent ridge on the 30th of march(:
wasted mr goh doesn't allow supporters as he is monitoring the team!
nvm the first match we'll be disciplined and supporters would be allowed to come for the match(:
hmmm, i guess so far so good, things are heading i want it for me?(:

we don't need to go that far,
lets hold on to where we are.
if its real we'll make it through,
cause all i want is you(:
CHEY!
CIAOS!

2008-01-20T20:11:00.000+08:00
YEAH! i'm back from soccer(:
lost but i really enjoyed myself(:
tomorrow is monday! i've got loads of work to do man!
soccer training tomorrow too!(:
i don't know if i should go to school tomorrow eh!
lazy to do my work!

hmmm,eventually i spent 20th jan fruitfully(:
train to ps.
a meal.
a movie.
donuts.
bubble tea.
a bus trip back to xin min sec.
LOVES(:
ILY(:
ps; i don't mind wrapping up myself and presenting myself as a present(:

2008-01-20T00:44:00.001+08:00
second post of the day(:
went out to have dinner with keran(:
walked,joked chatted(:
its been long since we had time catching up eh!
alrights its late, i'm OFF!

10 months, i never gave up(:
iloveyou(:

2008-01-19T15:21:00.000+08:00
i woke up super early today! woke up at 11!
unlike me eh!
i'm just so so bored! i just don't know who to call to go out eh!
my phone nearly got stolen yesterday!
hoho shall not elaborate(:

fun fair ah!
every question still has you in.
i've done walking the talk(:

2008-01-19T01:36:00.000+08:00
its 1.38am in the morning!
finally i can get to use the comp as my brother's friends are at my house.
last minute call from keran to play soccer. didn't want to go as i didn't have shirt and pants but in the end ron brought it for me(:
whoa today was seriously not our day.
didn't win any match, only had 1 or 2 shots on target.
seriously bored!
left ngee ann poly around 930, went to bishan, wanted to eat prata but in the end we went to eat at some noodle shop, as the prata house was crowded.
left with jarell and took 153 back home(:

going once,going twice, GONE(:

2008-01-17T19:46:00.000+08:00
I'M BACK FROM TRAINING!
tournament is gonna start soon, my fitness is dam jia lat!
pushing myself harder(:
must make it to the second round(:

whoa! i guess i know why!
come to think of it, i'm in the WRONG eh.
*things change but the feelings never(:
white jersey with the number 13(: whoa(:
100 degrees(:
BYE!(:

2008-01-16T18:04:00.000+08:00
whoa, i'm back home super early!
hmmm today was kinda a slack day?
really bored today!
well, i'm gonna run in the 400 and 1500,4x100 events(:
gonna train up on my fitness! and the soccer tournament is coming up!28 of jan!
another 12 more days, i'll give my best and keep my promise in making it to the second round(:
st gab, fair field methodist, kent ridge, ACS independent/barker(not too sure)
will be playing at fair field methodist sec(:

Ladies tell me do you understand?
And all my fellas do you feel my pain?
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my boo-ooh
you've been gone for too long
It's been fifty eleven days, umpteen hours,
i'll keep burnin till you return.

I'm twisted 'cause one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry.
don't tell me the words i love you have already become cliched to you.
walk away.

2008-01-15T20:12:00.000+08:00
the good life i had, all went away within a blink of an eye.
i miss the part when we were moving forward.
the simple life i had. all vanished from my fingertips.
sorry guys, its hard listening to you all.
shes the one that i love the most, its okay of what has happened, i just want a fresh restart.
i really empathise some of my friends who have been through this.
rollercoaster ride eh.
easy to love some1, hard to let go of that special girl or guy.
baby, i do miss you so much):
sometimes i mumble to myself the words i wanna say to you.
i'm sure u noticed.

2008-01-14T16:37:00.001+08:00
i guess soccer took away the tiredness i felt during lesson time.
really tired and moodless..
i've got nothing much to say.

OPEN YOUR EYES.
YES ITS TRUE,
THAT I STILL LOVE YOU.
now i'm running and screaming..

2008-01-13T18:55:00.000+08:00
what should i type out here?
i'm really asking myself hard. what what and what.
things really went so so smoothly.
i don't wanna write out what we did or what happened.
you know, i know.

baby; ask yourself this.
can u bear to give and throw away 9 months of LOVE that we put everything into?
tired, but tired of what? everyone is asking that question too..
isn't it about working things out as a couple?
isn't it when things are wrong, shouldn't we kiss and make up?
why not hit restart than to throw everything away? i don't see its worth it at all!
its so obvious that ur heart is telling you. u still love DARREN, but ur mind says things to throw you off the track.
yeah, i know you still have that feel for me. but why? its seriously not worth it to throw me onto the ground.
isn't it very clear how much i love you? after all has happen, i'm still trying. trying to bring this GIRL, whom i share my joys and sorrows with.
i myself can't bear to let it go down the drain.
follow your heart and not your mind.
baby girl, i still love you and i know you still do too. its really not worth it.
i know u'll be reading this. i really hope you could tell me you wanna HIT RESTART.
well, i've said this. there are more i wanna say, but nah, i shall stop.
i'm not gonna force you or what.
if its for you, it'll be for you.
i'm keeping to my promise. its the last try.
i just hope... you'll be back with me, girl i'm waiting.
my love is clear. all this shit stuffs has happen, but i wanna restart EVERYTHING.
i guess, when you're really determined, you won't change your mind.. please prove my guess wrong.

We got that you hang up no you hang up kinda love;but i guess not anymore..
i'm totally mood-less. girl, come back to me.
everything we've been through, don't throw it away.
i'm done on my part. girl, now its on you.
iloveyou.

2008-01-12T22:58:00.001+08:00
OUT WITH DESMOND AND ZUO YANG!
altered my school pants with them(:
zuo yang didn't alter. after that took 56 to novena.
ate at MOS burger, suppose to go shopping, but i guess we wanted to dota(:
so went to azure, but it was full house. so we went to @ corner.
saw our friends(: played with them too(: I'M FIRST EH!(:
enjoyed myself today(:

woke up from dreaming and put his shoes.
started making his way past 2.
SUNDAY(:
who knows eh.
i don't do;regrets.

2008-01-11T18:11:00.000+08:00
bad start of the week , but a super GOOD ending!
FRIDAY!(: i had so so so much fun!especially after school!
all the laughter and getting caught by the DM, well its worth it i guess?(:
TOMORROW OUT WITH DESMOND AND ZUOYANG(:
MAYBE MORE!(: CLOTHES!

I won't try to philosophize(:
i'll just take a deep breathe and look into your eyes(:
i'll leave it to fate and luck!(:
whats meant to be will be(:
whats yours will be yours(:
not gonna force(:
POWER LA!

2008-01-08T20:31:00.000+08:00
yeah, had soccer today!
its been long since i played with my mates!
yeah i also had a great time laughing in ms seah's class!
but..
day turns to night,
thoughts comes flowing back to me.
yes, i must admit,although my friends moved to the front of the canteen to watch some other girls.
girl, my eyes never left you.u're the one i'm looking.
glances during recess and assembly too.
i still love you.
yes, i miss you so dam much.
tears now and then, i wish everything could go back as it was.
i miss the part when we were moving forward.

my heart and souls wants to continue on this battle.
baby, u're still the one i love.
i'm jaded, but my love will never be.
hero/heroine.
I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?
ily(:

2008-01-07T17:55:00.000+08:00
It's early in the morning
And my heart is feeling lonely
Just thinkin bout you baby
Got me twisted a little bit
And I don't know how to take it
But it's driving me so crazy
I don't know if it's right
I'm tossin turning in my bed
Its 5 o'clock in the morning
And I still can't sleep
Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me weak
I'm feeling hopeless in my home
I don't know what to do I think I'm in love
Baby.

i need you boo,
i gotta see you boo.
a disguise i wear to school..
today is seriously bad.i'm down.BYE

2008-01-06T23:18:00.000+08:00
second post of the day.
its the time of the day that i'll start lamenting to my friends.
guys sorry and thanks uh.
easier said than done!
letting go ain't that easy as you think.
well i guess some people would understand.
it may sound cliche all the time. oh well,once u face it,you'll know it.

well, i don't wanna fall on the last hurdle.i'll do it good, and it'll be great.
yes, i do miss you.

2008-01-06T19:56:00.000+08:00
i'm back from soccer!(:
won 3-2!
i ran all out.tomorrow there is soccer?
i'm not very sure but faris says there is some sec1 orientation thingy.
if so, thats means i gotta postpone my dental appointment.
alrights i shall stop and go do my stuffs.
and i'm gonna go do my work at 845(:
i know i'm a good boy(:

We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
And we'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
indecision to call you.

2008-01-05T14:46:00.000+08:00
i was told;shes your love. so waiting isn't gonna be a big deal(:
hoho! i'll be going out with one of my estate friend today!
ah Eileen, you better not be late uh!
hope its gonna be a good day for me(:
short post, i'm OFF!

jaded, but never gonna give up(:
POWER LA SIA!

2008-01-04T17:45:00.000+08:00
thank god its friday!
i'm so tired today!
but still played soccer after school!
yes i had a great time letting lose!(:
but after that, not in the mood..
well, gotta find things to do.
sunday maybe going for soccer, den saturday i really don't know.
i hope that i could go out with my friends.
hope to be called out uh!

i've got nothing more to say.
i'm off!
give until theres nothing left to give(:

2008-01-03T17:58:00.000+08:00
well, i didn't have a good end to 2007.
i didn't have a good start to 2008.
i seriously don't blame you at all, i seriously don't.
but thanks for the wonderful 9 months plus. i've learnt lots of things from this relationship.
i've told you time and time again, i won't mind saying it here(:
no matter wad, if u change your mind. i'm HERE.
right now we'll just be friends.
maybe in the future we'll just be friends.
but yeah, i'm HERE.
i'll lose my pride for the one i love, and i'll never lose you for my pride.
well my hopes were super super high before i went over to your house.
but its okay. sometimes when you get your hopes too high, it'll be dashed.
i read your message over and over again, yes i was tearing in the bus, it got worst when i got off the bus. all the memories with you just came flashing back.
i do wanna concentrate on my studies but i can't.
i feel so tired but at night i can't get to sleep.
well i hope that it'll be better for me in days to come.
its okay, i know you got your reasons. i understand.
time; i've got. but don't make me wait longer than i shouldn't.
if we really don't stand any chance, just go ahead and tell me.i wouldn't mind.
okays i'm stopping.

i hope i'll call you my baby the next time i talk to you(:
BYE!

2008-01-02T16:48:00.000+08:00
school started!
yeah the teachers starts making you feel scared, O levels.
well i'll take things at a step(:
its okay, i said before. and its like playing soccer!
you get tackled, you get injured, u missed the next important match, you can super disappointed.
well pick yourself up, heal the injury, learn from MISTAKES, don't keep thinking about the mistakes you've done and think back; ah shit, i shouldn't have done that, it really cost me dearly.
yeah it takes time for the injury to heal. its okay, i'll take it! i've got my friends around!
theres soccer tomorrow! i'm going all out aye!

sometimes u look back time and time again.
yes i do feel hurt, feel so dam fucked up, feel so dam played out, feel so dam busted/ kena BASTARD-ED.
well whats done is done.
its okay, if it happens to you, you'll know how it would feel.
zuo yang told me very very right thing.
concentrate on your soccer and studies.
its okay, its her lost, you gain cause u'll learn from your mistakes and u'll get STRONGER.
he also said this.
zhi ren,zhi mian,bu zhi xin. it means;
you look at your girlfriend,you know her well from the OUTSIDE,but in her heart, you don't know wad the hell she is thinking.
yeah i agree with this. i myself don't know why i'm still able to forgive you, maybe i do really love you, but this love is clearly been blind.you ain't able to see it.

its ALRIGHT(:
here i come, you'll never bring me down, GOODBYE(:

2008-01-01T22:01:00.000+08:00
you were my everything;
This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn’t realize it at the time
I can’t forgive myself for the way I treated you so
I don’t really expect you to either
It’s just... I don’t even know
Just listen…

You’re the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel

That wasn’t me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies

I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt
But I didn’t know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn’t care when push came to shove

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don’t know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one else could know you
You’re number one, always in my heart
And now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart

[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you’re holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can’t hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain

Damn it, I’m insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work

What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me

I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I’m not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind

[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but…
No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart
You’ll always be my baby

Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse

We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there
I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care

Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn’t think you would ever do me like this
I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed
I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I’m trying
Now on the inside it feels like I’m dying

[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we’ll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy

well, i know this is your favourite phrase;
it takes two to clap. i'm one, and i'm hoping you were be the second.
yeah i'm waiting.its okay if you don't reply or answer my calls.
i've lost my fighting spirit. but i'll wait. hope it shows that my love for you is still strong, even though all these has happened.
i know i've said this to you.
life is short, kiss and make up(:
well,all i gotta do is wait.
*loving someone is easy, but letting go is HARD. i know you have your reasons. no matter wad, i'm still here waiting for you*

2008-01-01T13:09:00.000+08:00
yeah, yesterday went to catch AVP with my brother and his friend.
after that went to lau pa sat to eat.
talked abit with faris.
its great catching up with friends whom you never seen for quite a while.
should be going out with them later in the afternoon.
well, sleeping was not as bad as waking up.
it seems that you wake up.
you sit up and scratch your head, feeling that something is missing.
you get out of your bed, you turn left and right.
yeah.the first thing that came into your mind..
its alright, i'll try to make it through the day.i guess i'll listen to my brother and ben. i'll go to school,it'll take things off my shoulder.
i guess i'll leave it to fate and faith.but nah, i won't leave it to promises.

i'm stopping.
I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but…
No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart
You’ll always be my baby
BYE.

2007-12-31T16:55:00.000+08:00
well i'm speechless. i don't know wad to type.
yeah wad i said just now were sincere.
i know i loved you with all my heart.
i know you do too.
i don't know why, maybe you misinterpret my message.
i'm sure i didn't say you didn't have enough time for me.
what really hurt was when i came over to woodlands, you were laughing, still being jolly.
its okay, i faced it like a man, i told you i still love you and i don't mind waiting for you.
when i came back to give you my ring, you held my hand, it seems that you were not sure of your answer. the tears, made me puzzled.
its okay, i walked away. i guess i won't take it as a break up. maybe as a time out.
i know you'll be reading this.
its okay, i respect your decision.

the past 9 months plus was great, but today i woke up having to face a nightmare.
i guess i won't be able to take it in my stride as i know i haven done anything wrong.
its okay. i'm stopping now.
girl,text me or call me.
i do wanna have a talk with you when you have calmed down.
thanks for the gift anyway. i'll be using it.
and yes, i'm waiting for you.

quin weng and cress; i guess i haven broken that promises i made to you both!

i'm stopping.
what would you say if i asked you not to go.
to forget everyone,
to forget everything
and start over with me.
would you take my hand,
and never let me go.
BYE.

2007-12-30T22:21:00.000+08:00
yeah, i do need you when i'm at my lowest. a litte hug with warmth.

NOW, boleh?

2007-12-29T00:52:00.000+08:00
not a really good day for me i should say.
well nvm, tomorrow will be a better day!
don't know wads wrong with me today.
i'll be better tomorrow i promise!

well,i think i shall take it back.
after reflecting, it was just harshness,and not meant to be.
yes, ily(:
BYE.

2007-12-26T00:48:00.000+08:00
yeah she's back(:
well, today was not really a boring day.
slept at 5, woke up at 12.
used the comp and watched my friend play too.
after that left the house at 7 den made our way down to AMK.
gonna eat botak jones with my classmates.
but the AMK outlet don't know shift to where.
so had to make our way down to the braddell outlet.
so all's wel ends well(:
had fun, loads of laughter.after eating den went back home.

well, thats all!
just5 more days to 2008!
i'm coming!
the tables has turned.
i guess i've gotten stronger.
whats yours is yours, whats not is not. lost something precious to you,meant for you it'll come back, if not it won't.
time heals all wounds.its hard, but u'll never be a fool for a long period of time.
well i guess its putting it to FAITH AND PROMISES(: but broken promises will never be forgotten easily.

2007-12-25T00:14:00.000+08:00
2008 is coming! just 5 more days!i can't wait!
its the 25th now! MERRY CHRISTMAS!she coming home today(:

haha! i want my presents from you!(:
DON'T FORGET!(:

time for dota!(: ITS BEEN LONG SINCE I PLAYED IT!

2007-12-24T03:35:00.000+08:00
its 3.40am now, i can't get to sleep.
just one more day to go!

i've got nothing to post.
BYE
the silence makes you wanna scream..
ily!

2007-12-22T22:02:00.000+08:00
had this weird "dream" don't know if its true or not eh.
hah, a week that i would want to forget but remember..
one to throw away but have to keep it.

hicupps.
come back soon.
ily.

2007-12-22T01:29:00.000+08:00
ate at manhattan fish market with zuo yang and an idiot(:
well, today is friday..
its the time of the day where i won't really have the mood to do anything.
i guess i'm stopping here.
nites!

come back soon.
it feels different, it feels incomplete.
sleepless.

2007-12-18T18:28:00.001+08:00
3 more days to friday..CRAP..
well soccer-ed with keran and co. played quite well(:
4 straight hours of soccer, and still i slept at 3 and had to wake up at 9!
yeah i'm kinda tired!
well, another 20 more days to school reopens. i'm half half, wanna go to school but at the same time don't want.
2 more days to the 20th!
time really flies(:

well, throw 2007 away, 2008 i'm coming! i'm changing everything, 2007 was loads of downs, but yeah it has its ups.(i'm sure i'll get back the fun i had from march to the end of june)
mistakes;i've learnt from. well it only made me stronger. make me fall? it'll be hard.
but when i do fall, don't regret. don't take things for granted.1 time, no 2 times.

2007-12-17T00:38:00.000+08:00
yesterday had barbecue with my classmates, after that some went over to my house for a sleepover(:
literally had only 3 hours of sleep! slept at around 9 plus woke up at 1.
didn't go soccer as my father didn't go..
didn't meet up with you as there wasn't any soccer and the time was quite late..
tomorrow gonna meet up with keran and co. for soccer at east coast park.
its 1 o'clock in the morning and i have to wake up at 0915!
tomorrow; a super slight possibility that i can meet you):
well, HOPE ONLY!

basket, liverpool lost to man u..pathetic..
my christmas list; it never seem to be GRANTED.(i don't have one uh)
i close my eyes, but i keep hearing screams from this dream.

2007-12-14T20:34:00.001+08:00
today's soccer training was cancelled..
oh well so much for wanting to train with the team! nvm played soccer with syazwan,andy,eugene,khairul,chuan yan,farhan,and the other one the name i don't know how to spell.
well in another 2-3 weeks, it'll be 2008 and school will start!
i just can't wait to get back to school!
but i dread O levels.. taking the exam is EASY. wait for result uh, pray for a miracle ah!

yeah! but still enjoy first la! tomorrow will be celebrating ryan's birthday!
i'm sure i'll have loads of fun!
after that they should be coming to my house? i think so.
everything's so packed, i wanna have MORE TIME!
24 hours where got enough? if we want 48 hours a day, we complain too long!hmmm 36 hours la(:
yeah i guess i'll stop for now.

i shall return to DOTA(:
soon is how soon..
a crying voice, i think i heard somewhere before.

2007-12-10T18:31:00.000+08:00
whoa! its been about 3 weeks since i've blogged.
been busy and went overseas too.
the food there is GREAT, but the clothes are all not nice. shirts are all long sleeve.
so didn't buy much shirts.
things are so far going okay for me.
tomorrow faris and co. should be coming to my house, and after which gonna head to serangoon for SOCCER! its been long since i last played with them.
hope tomorrow there'll be good weather and good teams to play with!
i'm super bored now.
i don't know if i should go out now.i'm bored but i'm lazy to go prepare and stuff.
hmmm maybe i should get my ass of the chair and go prepare after posting(:
2008 is coming, i can't wait! 2007 is a year that so many things just go by so quickly.
happiness and sorrows.
oh well, next year i'm sure it will be super super GREAT(:

alrights, its a quite a long post already. i shall stop.
hello there, i see u in my nightmare.

2007-11-22T22:18:00.000+08:00
oh man! i'm going to taiwan tomorrow.
how i dread going away from you):
i'll be back in one piece and u must be the first person i see uh!(that i know, except my family members)
it'll be hard, but we'll pass our TEST(:

IF I COULD MEET CUPID! I WOULD LIKE TO THANK HIM FOR MAKING ME FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU(:

2007-11-21T00:33:00.000+08:00
8MONTHS(: 246DAYS(:
i had a great day today(:
i'm all smiles!(:

i would rather have bad times with you than good times with some1 else(:

walking on the hills at night,
with those fireworks and candlelight.
you and i were both meant to get love right(:

2007-11-17T00:27:00.000+08:00
i was DAM BORED!(from morning till evening!)
after that went out(:
you never know how happy i was to see you(:
it goes to show i'm paying attention(:
listening to everything you mention(:
MONEY;i would rather be poor & HAPPY then be RICH & SAD.
small things but big impact, but these small things never seem to happen.
i take back my words about 100 percent effort=100 percent result;its BULLSHIT.
RESULT never seem to COME.
i'm very sure this happens to some people,
you wanna be happy but the next moment something hits you real hard.
makes you feel like u're hanging by a thread.
i'll stop now.

2007-11-15T20:22:00.000+08:00
ZHU CHANG FEN(:
i'm at home and its super boring!
only can play DOTA, but after a while can be quite boring!
hoho i'm gonna sound contradicting(:
right now i'm waiting for people to play DOTA!(:
can't help its super boring!

oh girl, your soon is how soon?
i'm still waiting!
i don't like waiting eh!

2007-11-12T23:40:00.000+08:00
i just reached home from playing soccer!
i'm so dam tired!
before soccer, there was was a chalet.hoho only slept foe a while only.
pictures the next post(:
and that idiot is pestering me to faster turn off the comp!
i should be more tired than you eh!

hoho alrights i guess i shall listen to her(:
stopping here.

*i'm waiting; no all fart no shit uh!*

2007-11-08T22:18:00.000+08:00
alrights! its been a long time since i've blog!(:
well things are so great this week!(:
played soccer at THE CAGE with keran and gang!
its been long playing soccer with keran;and talking and joking with him.
yeah! i scored 6 goals(:
we played for 4 hours!
dam tiring!

i guess i should change my blog song(:
predictable by good charlotte!(:
alrights, stopping here!

PS: ily(:

2007-11-02T10:46:00.000+08:00
i'm sick, so i'm at HOME!
ah that idiot still isn't awake!
WAKE UP!(:

AH! stupid headache i'm having now!

*a long kiss a day, keeps the doctor away(:*